people tease me all the time because of the amount of time i spend on facebook. i know it is an absurd amount. i admit it. freely! but i don't really have any desire to change it.
i spent a lot of my life feeling alone. lonesome. lonely. all by myself. a lot of it, or at least for a while, it was a self-imposed loneliness, caused by my complete lack of self-esteem. too afraid to ask for anyone's friendship. too timid to try and reach out. convinced i was less than others. so sad. so lonely.
here i am, now very strong, very self-confident (most days) and quite joyful about my life. and when i have those very rare moments where i start to feel alone, i can jump on FB and chat away, or read about what other people are doing, or just play games. whatever. but loneliness is really not on my horizon any more.
i am also amazed at who is a 'friend' of mine on FB... some of these people never seemed to have the time for me in high school or college. but they seemed so eager to 're-connect.' if you know me, you realize i am not one to hold a grudge (though i also don't forget). so if they wanna be my friend now, i'm okey-dokey with it.
a really cool side-effect of FB is discovering the things that i have in common with those i had not necessarily known that well. people who also have autistic children or who also love tattoos; other single parents or those who enjoy the same movies; people who love or hate president obama; those who adore pittsburgh and those who see it as a hole. i am learning so much from my time online and on FB.... why on earth would i want to stop?
when i first graduated from bethany, i used to sent letters to friends. i would spend hours writing to them, hoping to hear from them back. it would be weeks or longer before i would get updates and find out what people were up to. now i can find out almost instantly. i have found friends who had become 'lost' to me. i have re-connected with my very first (best) friend. and we can pick up right where we left off..... sharing memories and getting to know each other all over again.
ok, so my point is... don't bother telling me to cut back on my FB time. it's not gonna happen. yes, when i go away for a week, i am off of it... and i survive. but otherwise, you will see checking in all day, every day. because i like it! so there! ;)
i spent a lot of my life feeling alone. lonesome. lonely. all by myself. a lot of it, or at least for a while, it was a self-imposed loneliness, caused by my complete lack of self-esteem. too afraid to ask for anyone's friendship. too timid to try and reach out. convinced i was less than others. so sad. so lonely.
here i am, now very strong, very self-confident (most days) and quite joyful about my life. and when i have those very rare moments where i start to feel alone, i can jump on FB and chat away, or read about what other people are doing, or just play games. whatever. but loneliness is really not on my horizon any more.
i am also amazed at who is a 'friend' of mine on FB... some of these people never seemed to have the time for me in high school or college. but they seemed so eager to 're-connect.' if you know me, you realize i am not one to hold a grudge (though i also don't forget). so if they wanna be my friend now, i'm okey-dokey with it.
a really cool side-effect of FB is discovering the things that i have in common with those i had not necessarily known that well. people who also have autistic children or who also love tattoos; other single parents or those who enjoy the same movies; people who love or hate president obama; those who adore pittsburgh and those who see it as a hole. i am learning so much from my time online and on FB.... why on earth would i want to stop?
when i first graduated from bethany, i used to sent letters to friends. i would spend hours writing to them, hoping to hear from them back. it would be weeks or longer before i would get updates and find out what people were up to. now i can find out almost instantly. i have found friends who had become 'lost' to me. i have re-connected with my very first (best) friend. and we can pick up right where we left off..... sharing memories and getting to know each other all over again.
ok, so my point is... don't bother telling me to cut back on my FB time. it's not gonna happen. yes, when i go away for a week, i am off of it... and i survive. but otherwise, you will see checking in all day, every day. because i like it! so there! ;)
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