so my mommy is going to have to have surgery. now, you may wonder about a person, me, who is almost 40, still calling my mother, 'mommy.' but she is my mommy. she is absolutely my heart. and it is kinda scaring me a bit to think that she is mortal. yeah, total denial.
my mom has been dealing with spinal stenosis for years. but it has become quite debilitating. she can barely stand or walk now. it causes her a great deal of pain and her lower legs and feet are numb most of the time. surgery is going to be the only option to give her mobility back.
she has an appointment tomorrow with the neurosurgeon. i will find out after that when she will be having the surgery. it is a matter of practicality for me in one way, as she has been my childcare for a while. when she is in the hospital and after i will need different child care. but besides that, this is my MOMMY we are talking about! i talk to her every day. do you understand? every. day. period. everyday. seriously. so all this reality in my face right now is just not appreciated. i would much prefer to believe that she is going to live forever. or at least as long as i live. *sigh*
so please please please say some prayers for my mommy. ok? i need her to be ok, as i am sure she and my dad do too.
Hey! I didn't know you had a blog. Cool!
ReplyDeleteI wanted to say that I understand the not dealing with people being mortal thing. My dad had a minor stroke last year plus he takes lots of meds so he's not really the same person that he was. It's really hard to face that the people that you love the most get older and change, that the place you grew up in changes etc. I makes me feel really uncomfortable, scared, and a little adrift like I'm not sure what to expect next. So I hear you. I really do. I'm not really much of a prayer but I'll muster up some for your mom. My husband is better at it. I'll ask him to say some too.